mynameisfarah

last goodbye;

2009-12-29T23:57:00.001+08:00

goodbye mynameisfarah.
you've served me well for 3 years.
it's time i let you go.
bye.

moved.
theighthone.lj

Swiss Garden, Perak.

2009-12-23T20:08:00.003+08:00

Went for a short trip last week.

Something we do once almost every year.

Went to Swiss Garden Golf Resort and Spa, Lumut, Perak.

The place is great, very relaxing. :)

Did so many things together, swim, kayak, beach soccer & banana boat. (Y)

Then the last day two days were spent back at KL.
Stayed at Dad's apartment there.
And we went Sunway Lagoon! :D Like finally

So many things have changed there, especially the Viking!
It is 360 now, freaking awesome!

my girls.

2009-12-16T22:14:00.001+08:00

Missing Nor' Atiqah out.
No matter what, the six of us remains(:

The Netball girls.
The meet up, once a year.
But still close as ever. :D

The taupok session! :DD

Fairus' wedding.
Kind of a mini gathering for the Serangoon people.

love(:

KL, Perak.
will be back.
till then, miss you.

that saturday.

2009-12-12T12:54:00.004+08:00

FINALLY FYP IS OVER!!

And we all think that our team's attire was the slackiest!
Surprisingly, we ended before 12. What a relieve!

Then met Groupie at night for our annual dinner.
Finally, I meet them! It's been ages. Seriously.
Met the some girls for dinner on Thursday.
At least I'm still trying to make up to the times I've not been able to.
And Siying cheat my feeling for both meetings. booohoooo!!!

Okay, meeting the other girls later. Tata! :))

2009-12-01T15:07:00.003+08:00

I'm pretty looking forward to assessment on the 5th.
Not that I'm so excited to present but rather I'm just waiting for us to be free! Hahaha.
A lot of things to look forward for after the 5th.

Annual Dinner with the Groupie on the 5th.
Like finally I'm able to meet them. :)

Family bowling session on the 6th.
They decided on this on Hari Raya Haji and we'll be bowling from 11am. :D

Beach outing with the awesome sexayes girls.
So so sorry cos we had to cancel on the 5th just cos I forgot about the dinner.
On the 12th, okay girls?

Chalet with the serangoon netballers on the 8th - 10th.
It's still a school week though. But I'm only staying for a night.
Perseverance mannnn. Hahaha. Got school!

And, many many outings with the favourite companion. :)))
Picnic the other day, wassss great(:

A load of the shoulders.

2009-11-27T20:15:00.003+08:00

It's been a long time since I last post a proper post.
I just lost the mood in blogging because I dont know what to blog about.
FYP had been a major bitch in my life.
For now, I'm done with my report. Like finally!!
No more reports to think of.
And poster draft had already been sent to Reb for compiling.
Hopefully there will only be some minor changes.
Then the big day will arrive on the 5th of Dec.
After that, we can celebrate without the prawns!
If the prawns were still alive, I think I'd bring back the prawns and eat them all!
Hahaha. Cos they made my life miserable having to come back to school even on Sunday to feed them. Grrrr.

Oh before I leave,

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha to all muslims. :)

lost.

2009-11-18T23:53:00.000+08:00

i'm slowly losing it.

another ninth.

2009-11-09T21:09:00.002+08:00

Today is 6 months after I turned nineteen.
Today is the day after the eighth of November.
Today is the day before my sixth week of semester two.
Today is the day before my first ut of the last semester.
Today is the sixteenth day before the final submission of G302.

Time flies like the speed of light.
This is the final lap.
Just believe.

andtodayisjustanotherdayimissyou.

2009-11-04T23:40:00.003+08:00

Oh oh oh,
before I forget,

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY MARJORY!!!

:DD

x_x

2009-10-31T16:22:00.001+08:00

This blog is dead.

Too much.

2009-10-21T10:31:00.000+08:00

You're crossing over the line, girl.

the irresponsible.

2009-10-14T11:52:00.004+08:00

People are never satisfied with their lives. I love using this phrase. Instead of being satisfied, they want more. They want their lives to be more exciting. Even when they know that the things they do will affect them in a way. Be it socially or with their health. Some people love taking risks. To them it is very challenging, and when they succeed taking the risk, there'll be satisfaction and happiness. Wait, no satisfaction. Because people are not satisfied. Let me give you an example. Smokers. Some smokers have heart problems, breathing difficulties and asthma. When you know that you have all these, why even think of smoking? Then what's the point of the regular check ups at the polyclinic/hospitals and constantly buying your inhaler when you have no more? You waste money even more than the normal smokers that don't have all these diseases. You waste money on cigarettes and also on your medication or whatever. Some even coughed blood and don't go to the doctors. Why? Because they're scared. Scared of what the doctor might say. If you're scared then why in the first place do it? Most say they smoke to release stress. Righttttt. Please think before you speak.

Recently, I was classified as the irresponsible one. I admit that I'm not that responsible as I can't be bothered sometimes. But that doesn't mean I'm not who I actually am. Because you don't know me and you never tried to know me that you say all those. Face it. How well do you know me that you go around telling people about me. Right, you know why they believed you or think that I'm like that? Because they don't even know me! Imagine ranting to someone who knows me really well. Will they look at me like how your friends looked at me? No. I was never irresponsible, because I know. But sometimes I don't realise the things that were never said or done, and I apologise for that. You get influenced by others so easily that you too don't realise what you're doing now. Before you say I'm irresponsible and never did what I am suppose to do, think again. Because you don't even take proper care of yourself. Not irresponsible meh?

People change in lives. They change either for the better or for the worse. It's either they get influenced to change or they want to do it on their own. I know you want to change and I appreciate the effort. But sometimes when you want to change, you have to take things slow. Don't rush or force yourself if you think that you're not changing. Changes takes time. Like the seasons in other countries. From spring to summer, it doesn't change instantly in a day. It takes time for the temperature to rise day by day to obtain the hot summer. So don't force yourself to change because you will end up taking a longer time than you thought you would. At the same time, you'd affect the people around you. The ones that you love and care for. Without realising it, you'll tend to hurt them and yourself too. People also need time to accept the change in you. So take your time, no hurry.

still irresponsible?

Retarded.

2009-10-11T21:04:00.005+08:00

One week of school passed. Time is passing quite fast I must say.
I think I'm getting fatter. At least I feel that way. Ohmy.
Okay, time to do something! Or else, when I get back for cny next year, I'm gonna get it again.

You know, sometimes I don't have to be physically there to be there.
If you ever need me, you can just call or text.
Even if I'm not physically there, you know that I'm always here for you.
And it's not that I don't care or what, but sometimes when I asked, nothing is always the answer.
I tried but to no avail. So, don't think that I'm never there and never cared.
Because I really do and you have to do your part too.
At least text if you don't feel comfortable.

I know I've not been a good person lately.
I've not been a good friend, a good daughter, a good sister or a good teammate.
And I truly apologise for that.
But I've been trying. It's just not easy.
And yeah, sometimes less is more.

Some people just don't feel satisfied with their lives that they have to intrude into other people's lives.
What they don't realise is that by doing all these, won't make us go down.
Instead, it makes us stronger. Stronger to face the future obstacles.

"Don't sacrifice your happiness for what other people think or say about you."
I'll live up to this sentence.
And whoever you are, thank you. Cause you just made me stronger, somehow.

hey you, smile.

Raya outings.

2009-10-05T16:37:00.004+08:00

The four kids at Salasiah's house. ;))

Raya outing with RPWST on Thursday was hell tiring. More than 12 hours of visiting and driving from one end of the island to the other. Had to send 10 people home after visiting the last house, which is Farrah's. Got back at 3am, had to ask sissy to accompany me to the carpark. HAHA! After I got back, it was straight to bed. Till sissy and Renie thought I sleep talked. -.-" Total house visited, 12 houses. :D This is just two pictures out of the 1029 pictures they took that day. Pastu, training semue berat. Haha.

Raya outing with Sexayes yesterday was well, half way for me and Haiqal. Sadly, I forgot that I can't take more than one normal panadol if I feel giddy. I guess my head was really spinning till I can't think. My eyes started swelling up after leaving my house, which is only the 4th house. Went to Que's after that and the swelling got worst. Damnnn. Rested and they sent me home after that. It became like fishball please. Went to the doctors straight away and receptionist said we had to wait for an hour before our turn. Mama was great! She asked the receptionist if I could go first as I was having an allergy. I was up next after that. hiahia. Anyway, the doctor gave three different allergy medicines, one that will cause drowsiness. Current size of the swell is smaller than yesterday but still swollen. Hopefully by tmw morning, it'll be back to normal. AND I GET SICK EVERY SINGLE TIME I'M GONNA START SCHOOL. ALWAYS! Hahaha. I guess my body allergic to school too. Haha.

Okay, this one's for you guys. The worst!

No school for me today. While the rest are all back to school for their first day of the second semester, I'm at home sleeping and feeling sick. Having Mondays off is somehow a good thing for me. I smell long weekends! :DD Okay, I shan't continue, later Norlyn and Ruiwei say I'm action. Hmph. :D

nag a thief filling.

2009-09-30T02:39:00.002+08:00

i dont know why i'm feeling this way recently. cannot be pms, too soon. i keep having all the negative thoughts and keep having all these random questions to myself lately. like who am i to them? do they treat all their friends like this? have you guys wondered of all these before? i'm sure you do. it's the last week of holidays and suddenly, everything's moving so fast. i thought of graduation and this last sem that i have to face. how am i going to pull through. what if my results aren't good enough. what am i going to do after this. all coming at one go. how's fyp2 gonna be like. 4th batch of prawns, please pull through. i'm sick and tired of pulling out dead prawns. trainings, trainings and more trainings. 8 rounds in 16 minutes. how am i gonna do it? no mental strength = no physical strength. coming back from an injury suck big time. because you have to build them up all over again. expectations will still remain the same but performance can never be up there anymore. it sucks. sometimes, i feel like working now. so that i can have extra money for myself. its not that its not enough but... anyway, i asked a stupid question on monday. i just felt like asking for assurance, random feeling. but i guess it was a mistake asking. no, i'm not doubting, i just feel insecure. i feel lost. like i'm gonna lose every single thing in my life. and school's starting soon. i wonder if i have time for myself or others. i need to train my body clock to wake up early. damn. you know sometimes i feel like shutting myself up from everybody, everything. i dont know why. its like everything's going down. there's some unfinish business. i want to make it happen soon. but when? its taking too long. and why cant i be treated like the rest. what's so different about me? fake smiles fake smiles fake smiles. i want our time. when? i feel like changing. but to who? shit. damn.

thoughts.

2009-09-28T03:07:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wonder who they actually take me as.

2009-09-25T13:25:00.001+08:00

WAH WAH WAHHHH.

SIANNNNNNNNNNN.

HOWWWW? ))))):

Yellow Submarine & Rainbow Stressballs.

2009-09-23T15:30:00.000+08:00

The pictures will do the talking.
First day with all donning the sunshine yellow.

At Mak's place.

At Busu's place.

At my place.

The cousins. ;)

Second day was spent at Muar and Batu Pahat, Malaysia.
Balik kampung~

The ones with and without teeth. ;))

Colourful cousins with Tok Jah.

With cousins from Malaysia. (Kak Laily & co and Hadi & co)

Fun & tiring first two days of Aidilfitri. :)))
More pictures up on Facebook. Haha.
The family is really big! Till all the extended extended relatives, I dont know. Huahua.

20092009;

2009-09-20T23:36:00.002+08:00

I, Nur Faraheen Yau, would like to wish all Muslims,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!

Maaf Zahir & Batin. :))

Malam Raya Geylang outing!

2009-09-20T06:00:00.004+08:00

Random last minute Geylang outing with Irna, Nunu & sissy!
To search for my last minute cravings of bazaar food. hiahiahia.
Besttttt! :D

And bunga api session with Sexayes was awesome!
What happened after the rocket sparklers exploded at my area was hilarious!
Will upload the video soooon, after second day of Raya kay! Promise. :))

2009-09-19T18:38:00.001+08:00

RAYA RAYA RAYA IS HEREEEEE! :DDDDD

Favourite Adidas watch.

2009-09-18T03:43:00.002+08:00

While cleaning, I 'rescued' my watch.
See what happened to my beloved watch)))):
Time to change strap. But they don't manufacture those straps anymore.

boooooooooooo))))):

I'll go help you find a new strap soon kay watch.
Be patient kay, soon. :))

OKAY, I WANT TO SLEEP!!!!!!!

teehedgeehhandkaywhyohyou(:

2009-09-14T00:20:00.002+08:00

thanks for everything.
((:

just another someone.

2009-09-11T18:21:00.002+08:00

I was just reading our chat logs.
We were really damn close, almost like brother and sister.
We talked about your matches and my matches.
Your progress in your sport and my progress in mine.
How you were so proud of me when I made the team last year.
How you'd talk to me about the places you visited because you're there for some competitions. -.-"

So weird now that we rarely talk, not that we're not on good terms.
Somehow I kinda miss chatting or talking to you.
No, I don't have that kinda feelings for you, but just that kinda close friendship we had.
You got someone now, and I'm really very happy for the two of you, really.
I just hope you're okay and doing fine, which I think you are.

Take care friend, I miss you.

Damn what am I thinking.

andimissyoumore.

Gen 5 already?

2009-09-10T16:54:00.003+08:00

What, Gen 5 already? Why so fast one!
And now got video camera or what! haha.
mygod, damn tempting sia this thing.
Look at the green, soooo niceeeee.
I don't understand apple products.
Better function at a cheaper price?
Not fair sial! Then mine so expensive): $#%@!

Click THIS to go the site.

2009-09-10T04:00:00.001+08:00

F*** YOU PMS!

I HATE YOU!

)))':

090909;

2009-09-09T20:08:00.005+08:00

What a nice date. If only my birthday falls on the 9th of September instead of the 9th of May. It feels sucky when you're stuck up here at the gallery watching the girls train and play ball instead of being there to play with them. Booooooo!! Btw, the prawns came in last week. But the response was really bad. Too many cannibalised and died on their own. So we had to order more prawns which came in today. Prawns come in = hectic days coming back to school just to feed them. I want my fun soon): So when's my turn?

The Red visited on the 8th. How great. And at such a great timing, but not as great as Norlyn's. Haha. Waste my whole day of fasting. tsk! So pardon me if I was acting all PMS days before or even today. =/

Sometimes I feel like...

Sometimes I hate the fact that
when you're free, I'm not.
And when I'm free, you're not. booooooo! )):

Dah lah, I'm so boring. And I didn't make a mistake there.
Yes, I'm boring. Zzzzzzzzzzzzz.

I also want to make you smileeee, can?
but howwwww? always fail one)):

lehzee!

2009-09-08T23:51:00.002+08:00

Okay time check 11:51pm, I still got time before it strikes midnight.

I've been very lazy lately, in terms of updating this damn blog.
Like boring uh my blog. Hahaha. Anyway, I missed the game against SIM last Saturday. Thanks to my ankle. hurr hurrr. And I think I have to miss game against Kaki Bukit too): but I want to play)):

And and and lastly, I had vadei, cheese hotdog, takoyaki, kebab, char kway sotong and putu piring for buka yesterday! muahahaha, baik punya! shiooooook to the max! :DD and yes, I want to let the whole world know. one and only time I eat this much for buka. weeheeeeeee ;)))

Iris Paul

2009-09-04T00:20:00.000+08:00

It seems so surreal that you're already on your way there.
On my way home, I still told myself that I'm going to see you tomorrow, which is impossible.
I know I kept telling you to be strong and everything's going to be okay here.
It will be, soon enough. I'll assure you that, you'll have my words.
Thanks for being such a great friend though we only knew each other less than half a year.
Please take good care of yourself when you're there.
Do your laundry every weekend, don't be lazy!

And thank you so so much for the lovely cupcakes(:
You shouldn't have. but thanks, really.
Write to us soon okay? Take care.
i miss you)):

the right.

2009-09-03T17:00:00.002+08:00

My ankle hurts badly.

)))))':

And it's not one side of the ankle, it's both the inner and the outer side):

I guess I would have to give SIM a miss.

2009-08-29T13:30:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED 19th BIRTHDAY SHARIFAH LOVE!! :DDD

Hope you enjoyed that mini surprise that we did for you.
All the best for your dance competitions and your Adam. Hehe.
Take care, love you(:

HAPPY BELATED 19th BIRTHDAY ALVIN CHAN! :DD

HAPPY BELATED SWEET 16th ATIKAH!! (:

HAPPY BELATED 21st BIRTHDAY FARIDAH!! :D

I'm damn lazy to update nowadays.
My days are filled with sleep, sleep and more sleep! Godd, -.-"
I don't know what else to do at home and I haven't been helping to clean the house. Hee.
Dah lahh, wait till I'm not lazy. Take care people!

Oh, Happy Birthday Michael Jackson.

Long waited dream.

2009-08-27T22:17:00.002+08:00

Like finally.
Alhamdulillah. :)

And to my three friends who didn't make it, heads up alright.
I know how it feels like, I totally feel you guys.
Don't give up, you can do it(:

2009-08-25T12:04:00.002+08:00

FINALLY AM DONE WITH ALL THE UTs!!! :DDDDDD

I smell fresher air noww. Ahhh, what a nice weather to sleep in. *snuggles up my blanket* And tomorrow will be another day that will determine my fate for this holidays. Hopefully I'm able to fulfill it. *cross fingers* Yesterday's result was disappointing though. Have yet to watch the replay of the match. But no point watching also. booooooo!

Okay, wanna sleep now! Goodnight! :D
cross your heart?

Al-fatihah Irsyad.

Embracing Ramadhan;

2009-08-21T15:35:00.004+08:00

Had no time to update for the past few days. Actually more of lazy than no time. Today's the only day I get to rest before the fasting month starts tomorrow. Had UTs for the past two days. Alright, manageable. It is only when you've studied that you'll say it's easy. So, two down, two to go. I thought of studying today but I just woke up. The weather was so damn nice to sleep in. Rained damn heavily in the morning. Then those people who burned their incense paper, I think very poor thing. Haha. Cos their papers were still burning when it poured heavily.

Oh oh, this month will be the month when two religious beliefs clashes. According to the different Chinese religions, the seventh month is where all the ghost were released to come back here to the living world to roam and eat or disturb the living, correct me if I'm wrong. On the other hand, according to the Islamic knowledge that I have, during Ramadhan, all the devils and demons but not spirits are being tied up for the entire month. Made me think of the possible ideas and what was most interesting was that my mum asked me the same question! Haha. Maybe the ghost that is believed to be roaming around in this seventh month comes under the category 'spirits' in this fasting month. Oh well, we'll see. :)

Congrats to Matthew!
Finally I see that smiling face for the whole day(:
And sorry to Midah, really am):

Ramadhan is here, today's the first terawih.
My grandmother requested to break fast as a whole family on the first day.
So tomorrow will be at Aunt's place to break fast. :DD So exciting!
Let's all embrace Ramadhan together.
And for those people whom I dont want to mention, please fast and dont waste it(:

Nation's Day.

2009-08-10T21:30:00.001+08:00

It was awesome!
With great entertainment and great company.
I can never ask for more(:
Defending our nation part, was cooooool.
The fireworks, indescribable((:
And the best part which is my favourite.
The floating paperboats((((:

filled with excitement;

fyi to those people out there,
you may never know how we felt that day.
because you never had the taste of hardship we've put through.
yes, pol-ite is over and youth league's just round the corner.
and you certainly don't know how significant pol-ite was to us.
because you've never worked that hard for it before, like we did.

that moment.

2009-08-09T01:22:00.004+08:00

I still can't get over it.
I will, sooner or later. But it takes time.
I can still cry thinking about yesterday's game.
When I woke up today, it was the first thing that came to mind.
And when I hear that song, the supposedly theme song for us yesterday, I felt even worse.

I know I'm suppose to be strong, to show good example to the juniors.
To show them that this is not the end. That they still got the next to work harder for.
But all of this, will take some time. For me to absorb and accept it.
And to know that this was our last, for some of us, really hurts even more.
That very moment, after the final whistle was blown, is still running through my mind.
How everyone just broke down. Really, I just can't seem to erase it.

life is just unfair sometimes.
)))))))':

"So close yet so far" - Coach Feiruz.

sank too deep.

2009-08-08T15:41:00.002+08:00

Stupid mistakes made for the first.

Fought it back in the second.

But it was just not enough.

Very very upsetting.

))))))))))))))':

we've got a feeling;

2009-08-07T12:00:00.002+08:00

that tonight's gonna be a gooood night! :D

LET THIS BE OUR MOTIVATION TONIGHT! :D

We can do it girls!

Haha, spot the difference!
or rather, similarity! :D

070809;
nice date.
good day.
good feeling.
good night! :D

2009-08-05T00:32:00.002+08:00

Yesterday's match was a killer in terms of strength.
My whole body is aching and I'm having bruises all over.
And Yiwen introduced a new term to me.
We're all suffering from DOMS, Delayed Onset Muscle Soreness.
And I soooo totally agree, when I read about it online. Haha.
Last game to go, come on girls!

Anyway, finally get to meet the groupie girls. A sad thing that Pearlyn didn't join us. The last time I met them was on Jialong's birthday party (14/03). LOL. Had a great time with them. Non-stop laughters and a little of catching up(: Drusilla, YOU PUNCH ME SOME MORE!?!?!!! Pictures will be up in the next post. Cos Mel's lappy can't seem to read the memory card. -.-" haha. And yes, meet-ups like this more often kay. But please dont make it on my training days! grrr. Then I have a higher chance in turning up. hehe(:

And I finally got my Sims 3! hehehe.
special thanks to the person who bought it for me.
so sweet of you, and your card. haha cute!
thankyou(:

imisstheonewiththejobnoww.

twentysecond;

2009-07-30T23:59:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST FRIEND!! ((:

be happy always.
dont think too much.
happy thoughts happy thoughts!
and fret not, i'm always here(:
thanks for everything.
and hopefully those small little things,
made you happy for this very special day.
once again, happy birthday love! :D
ily. iwy. iny.

live. love. laugh.
(pinjam eh midah!)

2009-07-29T13:41:00.001+08:00

it's all screweddddddddddd.

i dont know what to do anymore)):

why always end up this way?

farewell, film-maker.

2009-07-28T12:08:00.002+08:00

Her departure had moved a lot of people, especially those in Malaysia and Singapore.
She was upset and couldn't believe the fact that her friend left her.
Little did she know that she'll be leaving few days after that.

Her movies and ads moved people and made quite a great impact to the society.
Sadly, no one will ever produce movies like hers anymore.
And to see so many people still commenting on her Facebook wall, really shows how they've appreciated her.

I myself am a fan of her wonderful movies and ads.
She passed on a wonderful woman.

Al-fatihah, Yasmin Ahmad.

The one who directed Sepet, Gubra, Mukhsin, Muallaf, Petronas ads and not forgetting, Funeral (Beautifully Imperfect).

When the Kop came to Singapore.

2009-07-27T12:08:00.004+08:00

it was meant to be broken.

2009-07-26T01:44:00.004+08:00

Time and again, no matter how many times I apologised, I'll never learn.
Though some just slipped out of my mind, and it was seriously unintentional.
I'm truly sorry, I didnt meant it to happen.
And I know I can't blame the situation either.
Whatever it is, I'm really really sorry):

Promise is a bad word.
fuck my promises):

(sniff)

2009-07-25T11:10:00.001+08:00

i'mreallysorry))':
ididntmeantohurtyou.

onedown,fewmoretogo.

Mistake made by teens.

2009-07-23T10:17:00.005+08:00

This video (click it)

This was on Kellyn's page.
Watch it. Damn sad, seriously.
I cried while watching it.
Trust me, its not only me,
even my mum cried when I asked her to watch just now.
She called me and scolded me for showing her. Haha.

2009-07-21T00:25:00.001+08:00

RIP prawns)):

((:

a nobody.

2009-07-20T01:57:00.003+08:00

eh thanks uh! kite kan siape kan.
funny how you can act as if nothing happened.
have you tried asking yourself why?
now i realised that we're just here for the sake of being here.
now, don't come telling us all the bull shits.
because i fucking don't care anymore.
and stop telling others different stories.
i tried so hard to make things better.
but all i got is shit from you!
and you know what, you're dumb if you still don't get it!

it's time for you to wake up lah, please!
damn it.

mammee's birthday.

2009-07-15T20:12:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 47th BIRTHDAY MAMA!!! :DDD

Woo, nice cake over there!
Ma, you old already but I still love you. Hee.
And no matter what happens,
we will always be here for you, you know that right.
(though we dont show. hee.)
Hope you like what you got(:
And sorry, someone had to spoil the damn singing thing.
grrrr, impatient and not sincere. :(((

ONE DOWN, ONE MORE LEFT TO GO! :DD
Evals finally OVER!

stupid feeling.

2009-07-15T00:17:00.004+08:00

I can't wait for Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince!

Alot of things happened lately.
Damn lazy to blog about the details.
Basically, Sunday was Hafiz's sister's wedding.
After the wedding, the whole gang accompanied me to feed prawns.
Then lepak.

I dont know why but I feel so pissed now.
Sudden mood swing.

Maybe due to the fact that I'm fat and I cant seem to find sizes for the damn things I wanna wear.

And losing weight isn't so easy. It just pisses me off.
And maybe also due to the fact that my evaluation's in a few hours time.
Fuck, I'm damn scared.
What if everything goes wrong tomorrow?
What if I forget my stuff? Damn.
I almost broke my belt while attempting to punch another hole.
Damn fcuk hole. #%$&*@!

i was never part of your life, right.

2009-07-10T00:18:00.002+08:00

haha, gambar emo perrr!

This was taken on 29th of May.
So Matt, I sooo know how you feel okay.
Cheer up okay? We'll all do great the next time.
Smile pleaseeee :)

i'm sorrrry.
for whatever i've done.
)))':

self-reflect;

2009-07-09T01:01:00.002+08:00

situations. thoughts. uncertainties.

happy youth day, to me.

2009-07-06T20:07:00.003+08:00

Today, was self-proclaimed youth day for me.
Not on purpose okay! I had a really bad headache in the morning.
Midah, I think you passed it to me): Haha, kidding!
Anw, Happy Youth Day to me! :DD
hurrrr, you never wish me):

The fact that you're gone, was so surreal.
Until I saw your column in the obituaries,
then I realise it's not a dream.

celebrations.

2009-07-05T23:59:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY SISSY!! :D

She got an iPod touch, big big balloon, a bag of kinder chocolates,

a tee, a sports bra, 2 small fishes and formal clothes(:
cool kan? sooo many things.

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY ONGHWEEYEE!! :D

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY MICHELLE AND MARILYN CHIN!! :)

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY XUE FANG! :))

Presenting, long tongue. disgusting!

death is unpredictable.

2009-07-04T23:45:00.001+08:00

Don't hesitate to tell people you love them.
Because people come and go in life.
Cherish the ones you love now before it's too late.

Al-fatihah.
Rest in peace Heairil.

2009-07-02T23:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY FARHANA!! (:

wahhh, 20 already. old!

i cant imagine me being 20 next year. =/

sad that you had to be home all day on your big day.

nvm, you'll have your fun soon alright!

anyway, please eat more! hahaha. cos you're damn skinny to me!

grrr. i also wanna be skinnnnnnny! ):

the first of the seventh.

2009-07-01T14:18:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TEE RUI WEI!! ((:

Weeee, a year older a year wiser.
That girl 19 already seyyy, this battery lover! :D

Hope you enjoy your day well okay.

And continue adding laughters into people's lives(:
Thank you for being such a nice friend! Love love! :D

HAPPY 45th BIRTHDAY PAPA!! :DD

You're no longer young, 45 already! Muahahaha. *Evil laughter*

I hope you succeed in your career and hope you have a smooth journey towards success.

I dont know how to thank you enough for the things that you've done for me, us.

Thank you Pa, i love you.

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY DIDI! ((:

NS man ORD lo! haha. Dah tue sey didi!

Hope you enjoy your day to the fullest alright nice guy?
Dont look back to your past, look forward to your future.

I'm sure you'll have a great future, trust me. :)

Take care and have fun! ;DD

crushed.

2009-07-01T00:28:00.001+08:00

i dont know how to feel.
it kept playing in my mind.
what if it really happened?
what am i going to do?

i'll definitely thank them for what happened.
they almost got what they wanted.
they should be happy.

they are tired, they are sore.
but they are just not enough.

2009-06-30T00:55:00.001+08:00

ireallyhopeyou'reokay.

becauseisomehowmissyou.

2009-06-29T11:51:00.001+08:00

Please don't tell me that it's going to happen.

stupid.

2009-06-29T02:01:00.004+08:00

I think RP is damn stupid to keep us in school despite having 51 cases already.
They claimed that they don't want the studies to be affected.
Yah, and when this becomes serious then you ask yourself whether studies is more important. GAD!
It's not that I purposely don't want to attend school but I don't want to get infected, just that.
Oh, I'm not being paranoid either. Just trying to be safe. Grrrrrr.

idontknowanymore.

consecutive days.

2009-06-27T05:08:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY AJIT! :DD

A good friend who never fails to take care of us, girls.
I really dont know how to thank you enough.
Thanks for the love, care and laughter that you've brought to us, me.
Hope you enjoy the mini surprise for you.
Happy Birthday friend, take care. Sayang kau! :D

the 26th.

2009-06-26T20:30:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY ARUL! :DD

Welcome to the last teen world!

Chey, amacammm dah brape tahun we know each other?

Dah nak dekat 11 years sioooool. Haha.

Jiwe uh lu, masuk semue same skola ngan aku. Hahahaha!

Thanks for being such a good friend.

Seriously, from the bottom of my heart (chey chey!), you're a very nice person.

I've known you too long and too well.

Haha, sorry eh if last time I joined the rest to somehow bully you.

Happy Birthday once again! Take care of yourself and your bike(:

Michael Jackson will always be remembered.
They say, it's when that person's gone, then you'll start to treasure them.
Agreed much. But to show our sadness to the loss of this pop icon, doesnt make us fans of his.
People like to think that only when he's gone, then we're all his fans.
People have the tendency to think this way, so negative.
Tsk, not good.

Oh and by the way, if you think you have questions to ask, doubts to clarify or curiosities to kill, please dont hesitate to ask them personally. I believe your mum did taught you this before, "jangan jaga tepi kain orang." So yeah, even if you need to ask, ask those people who are involved. Yes, curiosity kills but you can kill those curiosities that you have. You dont have to keep asking other people about it. It gets annoying each time you keep asking the same people and the answers are all the same at the end of the day.

Please take a good look at yourself in the mirror before you question others. Thanks.

Haiqal's joke.

2009-06-26T04:15:00.002+08:00

Green! Green!
I pink up the phone.
"Yellow?"
"Blue is this?"
"White do you want?"
"Don't call black lah!"

:)

days with sexayes.

2009-06-23T14:29:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Juffri! :DD

:))

Eh where's Sharifah?

Jumpshot in the sea. :DDDD

Night at Jurong Hill. :)

cinone turned 19.

2009-06-22T11:13:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY MOK JUFFRI!! ((:

Weee, you're 19 already! Dah ader motor, fun eh!

Thanks for being such an irritating, annoying and loud friend. Haha.

But really, thanks for being such a nice, understanding and concerned friend(:

And lastly yes, sexayes wont die! ((:

Have a blast, chinese boy!

Ahhh, H1N1.
I scared, howww? )):

just one.

2009-06-19T12:19:00.002+08:00

it takes only one;
THANK YOU.

misunderstanding.

2009-06-18T13:37:00.006+08:00

I knew this would happen and it's impossible to prevent it.
It's not easy on my part, but I'll still try.
However, you are not helping me either.
As those kept coming to me, I really had enough.
I guess I'll just live with it then.
They say, this destroys friendship.

juffri rathbone. said:
tkmo sedihh
juffri rathbone. said:
sexayes wont destroy friendship!

And juff, thanks for those words(:
Really appreciate them.

Mount Faber.

2009-06-16T13:53:00.003+08:00

Outing with these two.
Thank you sooo much.
Love you girls, big time. :))

pre-season.

2009-06-15T23:59:00.002+08:00

Am back from soccer camp.
Had fun, suffered pain and am tired.
After all, it's worthwhile. :)

thatonlygoalforyou.
thosesplendidnights.

A week of soccer madness.

2009-06-09T14:40:00.001+08:00

Fuerte (:
It means strong in spanish, right AISHAH?

rpsoccer team(:

Outreach(:

I'm soooo worn out from soccer that I'm sick now.
Am going to the doctor's in awhile. This flu and all is killing me.
Faridah told me that I'd be given a mask. I really dont wanna wear it. LOL.

Oh and congrats to Raihan for passing! :D How I wish I could to. hmmm.

Glitz!

2009-06-05T01:36:00.002+08:00

Combined Soccer (M) and Soccer (F) :))

The team.

My "prom" partner adly(:

Too many photos taken.

Facebook's the saviour(:

it seems that i dont seem to understand you at all.

i'msorrrrry):

hot stuff.

2009-06-04T12:48:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICKY!! :DDD

hasmidahamid.

2009-06-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY HASMIDAH LOVEEE! :DD

Hope you enjoyed your mini surprise from us!
And together we shall pass that test okay! :D
And we're matured right? So, dont have to be even more matured. Haha.
Stay cheerful and remember we're all here for you!
i love you! :D

It was super distinct from her place on the 18th floor. Hehe:))

from all of us(:

pictures of Glitz will be up soon(:

unforgotten;

2009-05-31T03:11:00.003+08:00

Currently, I dont know what to post.
I'm just posting for the sake of adding another entry.
Oh yah, it didn't work out for me.
It is still fresh in my mind though.
I kept thinking of what happened and what could have happened.
They say, you won't know how it feels like till you've experienced it.
Yeah, now I do and it's hard for me to actually accept the fact.

However, I still have to look on the bright side.
Still trying to get over it. Well, hopefully.

And thanks to those who were there for me.
especiallyyou.

Keep your fools to yourself.

2009-05-27T23:18:00.003+08:00

I don't understand why MU fans always get so worked up when people don't SUPPORT MU. Let me emphasize this again, SUPPORT not CRITICISE. Well, certainly there would be people who would criticise MU, like my dad, no doubt about that. But not all of them right? One main reason why I hate MU so much is because of their fans. From being neutral about MU's rivalry with Liverpool, you guys made it worse by just being stuck up. Yeah, MU just lifted the title again, so? You don't have to call us Liverfoolians. Hate all you want, but by calling names, you're just a loser yourself.

And isn't it like a mutual thing to support the opponent of the team you hate?
Let say Liverpool is playing against Barca tonight, YOU PEOPLE would support Barca too right?
So stop being childish and lame. We'll just watch tonight's game, no matter who lifts the title.

So many things, so little time):
I'm physically and mentally tired.
You want to help me with my stuff?
ineedyouuu):

situations.

2009-05-27T01:52:00.005+08:00

There is tremendous happiness in making

others happy, despite our own situations.

I had this dream last night or rather this morning.

This is not made up, it's true. I dreamt of my friend, Arul.

I swear, I dreamt that you passed and you were damn happy.

Ajit, Aiman and I were at the centre waiting for you.

You came to us and smiled widely, "Aku pass lah sia :D"

I hope this is a sign. All the best Arul! Focus okay.

I guess I was too nervous about mine that I dreamt of yours.

And to my friend, Hisyamm,

Please please recover quickly.

Having to find out about it only now,

makes me feel soo devastated.

Meet up soon please.

I want to hear your stories & laughter.

Take good care of yourself.

You left me speechless, just by describing them.

Sorry mate):

no charge.

2009-05-26T01:08:00.001+08:00

JUST FOR YOU.

goodbye sami hyypia.

2009-05-25T14:45:00.003+08:00

Goodbye Sami, one of the best defenders I've ever known and liked(:

"Thanks for the memories Sami -
we hope to see you back at Anfield in the near future."

HAPPY BELATED 19th BIRTHDAY VIVIAN LI!! ((:

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY BERNICE ANG!! ((:

The day is coming nearer and I'm having butterflies in my stomach. =/
And and and, should I work part-time? hmmm, I dont knowwww):

awwwwwwww :'))

Not a birthday post.

2009-05-22T15:27:00.003+08:00

I AM VERY DRAINEDDDDD):

Consecutive trainings and long day of fyp;
made me really worn out.
Game against ISA later.
Hopefully, improvement in the scoreline.

And yayyyyyy to Kris Allen ;DDD
Though everybody knows that Adam is wayyyy better.
Even he expected Adam to win.
And thumbs up to Cara's performance! :DDD

Finally, this is not a birthday post. LOL.

2009-05-19T23:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY KELLY!! (:

2009-05-18T23:40:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY SAYANG!! :D

Hope you enjoyed your day well yeah.
See you soooon! ;D

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY ADAM!!

Three UTs coming our way this week.
Come on, get it done and over with.
I'm too tired): and I'm finally looking into prawns.

non-stop hits.

2009-05-17T23:20:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY ANG HWEE YEE!! ((:

Hope you enjoy your day well yeah.

Take care and see you soon! :D

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY CHERLY LIM!! (:

outdated.

2009-05-15T11:02:00.005+08:00

Yayyyy, I got balloooooons :DD.

And this picture paling kelakar.
Omg, just look at all the faces. Hahaha!
Thank you guys. lovelove!

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY RASHID!! (:

Hello black boy. Last teen already.
Please be matured and "think before you talk".
Hahahahaha! Know what I mean right.
Bawak motor tu, baik baik sikit. JANGAN IKUT NAFSU! Haha.
Kay, enjoy your day in school alright(:

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY REBECCA!! (:

Sotong! Cheyyy, 19 alreadyy.
Thanks for all the guidance that you've given us, esp me and Marie.
Never fail to encourage us to do our best.
Yes, final lap. Hope I can okay! Thank you LoBeKa! :DD
Enjoy your day kay, later Marie will sing for you. Haha!

HAPPY BIG 20th BIRTHDAY NAZ!! (:

Chey Naz, 20 sia! You old alreadyyyyyy! Haha.
Hope you have a blast today alright.
Enjoy your big 2-0! :DD Take care(:

2009-05-14T12:00:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY NICK!! (:

And say hello to my new loves! :DD

2009-05-13T23:35:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY SYAFIQ!! ((:

Hope you enjoyed the mini surprise we had for you.
Please take care of yourself alright.
Even robots need to have a break.
Hope you had a blast(:

HAPPY BIG 20th BIRTHDAY AHMAD!! (:

eeeeee old already! Haha.
Hope you enjoy your day yeah,
minus the FYP part. Hehe.

oooo, yesterday was rpsexayes off day eh? hahaha ;))

2009-05-12T20:42:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY STANLEY! (:

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY HAWA!! (:

Didnt go to school today, am sick): yes, again. I dont know why.
My head is heavy and I'm having flu. hurrrr, not swine flu okay.
Okay, gonna continue doing my report. zzzzz.

2009-05-11T15:37:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY ELLY SYAZANI!! ((:

Legal already, enjoy it while it last! :)

Boooo that we have to go to school when the primary and secondary schools kids don't. Same whattt, so no exception uh. Vesak Day holiday know. Tsk. Pictures will be up sooooon(:

back to back birthdays.

2009-05-10T00:23:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY NURUL HARYATI!! ((:

Omg, gambar zaman dulu dulu. Hahaha.
Hope you enjoy your day later on!
Happy Mother's Day to you too! Hehe.

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY DOMINIC!! (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MS SEAH! ((:

the ninth;

2009-05-09T23:13:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY RAHIM!! (:

HAPY 18th BIRTHDAY AMANDA!! ((:

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY NATALIE!! ((:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR KOH!! (:

And to those who wished me,
thank you so much!
really really appreciate the effort made! :D

To my lovable sexayes and mai,
thanks for surprising me at my place.
sanggup come my place in the middle of the night just to surprise me.
love you guys, really! ;D

mydaycouldn'tbeanybetter((:

2009-05-08T01:55:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY AH BERT!! (:

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY JIMMY!! (:

eigth, it's nice isn't it?

AND SIYING! YOU AGAIN!!!!! HMPH!
YOU WATCH OUT. YOUR BIRTHDAY I DON'T WISH YOU!
hehe kidding lah.

Ahhh, I don't feel like going to school,
I don't feel like going for training,
I don't feel like doing FYP,
I don't feel like doing anything related to school.

BUT still, all must do. Sighhhh.

professor.

2009-05-07T12:24:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY AZEEMA!! (:

HAPPY SWEET 16th BIRTHDAY JASMINE!! (:

I learnt something new about my professor-like teammate today. Now, I really judged a book by its cover. She's not as bad as she seems. She's just like me. The only different is that she is wayyyy to smart for me. Truth is, she hates science, but her parents forced her to do science. And what's worse is, she was forced to take private A levels. =/ She wants to take arts or media, they objected. She's given the chance to go to a good JC and her parents wants her to, but she didn't because she just wants to protest their wants. Good job. Haha. Oh and she's doing FYP on her own, cool shit. How I wish I'm as smart as her so that I don't have to suffer doing all these. Grrrr.

2009-05-06T14:00:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY QIU RONG!! (:

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY YAN LING!! (:

fcuk FYP.

suay may; eh rhyme!

2009-05-04T10:54:00.004+08:00

Did I mention that May is a very suay month? Haha.
I dont know if it is to any of you, but it is to me.
There's always something that will happen in this month ehh.
Pantat, now got H1N1. School is becoming more and more like a hospital.
With the officials wearing masks, and with all the registration booths at South Agora.
Borrrrrrrring!

"Often people say words that are said in a fit of anger aren't what they actually meant. Hmm, I personally feel otherwise. I feel when words that are said in a fit of anger are usually kept inside for a long time and comes deep down from the bottom of one's heart. I'm not someone good with words but then I feel normally it's under forced circumstances (anger) that caused someone to say stuffs they eventually regret saying. Correct me if I'm wrong. Only when you're really angry will you let loose of what's kept inside you for a long time."

Quoted from Joscelin's blog.

2009-05-03T23:37:00.003+08:00

STUPID INFLUENZA A!!
Sooooo leceh! Grrrrr.

On a totally different note,

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY JL!! (:

Hope you enjoyed your day!
Good experience not? Hahaha ;))

may day!

2009-05-01T00:35:00.002+08:00

Hello hello,
I'm back with more birthdays!

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY AH CHOW!! ((:

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY JOANNA!! ((:

It's MAY DAY! :))
The fifth month is here and somehow I still dont look forward to it.
You feel me? Haha. I'm anticipating more on the long weekend.
Oh wait, tmw must go school again! Booooo):

For soccer,
coach told us that as the days gets nearer to POL-ITE,
our 7 rounds will slowly increase to 10 rounds.
Eh wahh thanks uhhhh! 7 rounds je tak leh buat, nak buat 10 rounds):
and POL-ITE will be on July, hurrrr whyyyy?

pessimism

2009-04-28T10:05:00.002+08:00

After awhile, I then realise it is the week that I fear most.

But on a totally different note,

my professor-like teammate is absent.

Thankgod. :)

anything under the sun.

2009-04-27T14:03:00.002+08:00

Afterall, the scorching sun didn't stop us from having fun(:
And am glad that you enjoyed your day, Raihan.

it's the second already ;))

another set of birthdays.

2009-04-23T22:04:00.006+08:00

Yes yes it's another set of birthdays.
Bear with me because May is arriving, and that's worse. Haha.

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY DRUSILLA CHOO!! ((:

I dont have a picture of you! ):

You know, so many people birthdays,

I ran out of words to say.

Nevertheless, I hope you had a great day.

See you soon alright, take care :D

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY PARK HUI YI!! ((:

Yoochun will love you always!
He love me second! Haha. Kidding alright!

We shall fan-girl together one day okay. Haha.

Take care(:

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY JEZEBEL LEE!! ((:

Happy birthday babi!

Hope you're doing well.
Take care mate! :D

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY JIT RUI!! (:

Another ns mate celebrating his birthday in camp.
Take care yah! :))

It's going to be the end of ONLY week 1 and
I really can't wait for the other damn 15 weeks to end.

2009-04-21T12:44:00.003+08:00

I seriously have no idea why I'm still doing this.
This is so not my thing and I really have no interest in it.
They say, people do well in whatever they have interest in.
That goes without saying, right?
Because when you dont have the interest in something,
You just can't be bothered about whatever you're doing.

That applies to me. I know, winners never quit.
But I really dont know if I should be a winner in this area.
At times like this, I really wish I could turn back time and do other things.
I really dont want to regret doing this.
But I'm already regretting. You feel me?

Weird thing is I'm already in my final year, and I'm still not ready for this.
)':